Tonight I found this picture that I took several months ago.
And boy do I need the reminder.
As I write this, the reality that The Shine Event is exactly one month away is really sinking in.
I am so excited.
Nervous.
Anxious.
Excited. Excited. Excited.
But I'm going to be honest, I'm also afraid.
At the beginning of the year I decided that this year was the time to do something hard.
As I've set goals and worked my butt of towards them, I've grown a lot.
I always set really high expectations for myself. Sometimes it's good, and sometimes it's not.
But reaching this goal seems different.
I want more than anything to raise $20,000 for the students in Phoenix who just need a little extra love.
And I think that's why this goal seems like it's a bigger risk.
I know that if it isn't met, I'm going to be heart broken.
As I've worked with these kids, spent at least 60 hours a week working on this event, and trying to raise awareness, my energy has been devoted to them.
You become what you spend the most of your time doing.
I have invested so much emotion into this project and what's going to happen on October 20th, that I feel there's a lot riding on it. When it comes down to it, it's not really even about the money.
It's about the kids.
And having all of our hard work pay off so that a few of them can experience a future that they otherwise won't have.
I haven't been sleeping really at all the past month. I lay awake at night playing out every scenario that could happen.
What if not enough people come, what if my decorations stink, what if... what if... what if...
You know what gets me through? Thinking about what if those things don't happen, and in fact, quite the opposite does.
I pray every night that the opposite does.
Thanks for your never ending support, friends. You really, really, really have no idea how much it means to me. You fuel this project.
Let the countdown to October 20th begin.
Your attendance is going to mean more to me than you will ever know.
For you in AZ (or who want to road trip), you can RSVP HERE.
9 comments:
I want to come to AZ soooo bad.... but I can't manage it that weekend.
I have to say, your writing ability is a gift though, and I think your words as well as example are incredibly motivating. Way to shine!
So exciting that it is coming up so soon and all your hard work that has gone into it. You are beyond inspiring!
Wish I could come! I know it will be fantastic!!!
WAY exciting! You are so freaking awesome girl!! You are such an inspiration! AND hey...when I can't sleep at night worrying about things that are out of my hands I just remember that is NEVER was in my hands its in Gods. You've worked so hard so don't fret All will work exactly the way it should!!! :D Luv your heart!!!
xoxo ♥ Pieces of Luv
It will be awesome! Don't even stress out!
I wish I could be there! I think it's going to be great!
P.S. I gave you an award on my blog. =D
SO excited for you girly! You are going to do great!!! WISH I could come!!!
You are doing so well with it all! Hope the event goes well...if only I din't live on the other side of the world. I'm sure you will achieve your goal! :D
oh my gosh I would so be feeling the same! So much anticipation! I wish I could go but I work thursday nights! I only work 3 days a week so I can't afford to miss it :( Wish I could be there to support!
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